So, I think I'm finally ready to move onto to Step #2. I can't wait. I am digging this step by step process because it's tangible progress that I can see. I'm someone that deals better when I can see my progression.
Step Two is all about eating on a regular schedule. I find that lately my binges are not emotional responses but are physiological responses to not eating in a timely manner. Four hours after breakfast, I binged on four pieces of buttered toast. I felt bad about that because if I was going to binge, I could have eaten something healthier like grapes or carrots. I did read that when people starve themselves they crave fatty foods.
It's not like I'm starving myself intentionally. I know that by not eating I'm only pushing my body into starvation mode, so it's slowing my metabolism and my body is hanging onto everything I eat and converting it to fat. I don't know. Lately, I don't feel like eating. I think my meds have something to do with that. Because I don't feel like eating. Then I get these headaches and I start to feel faint, so instead of eating, I lie down and sleep. When I get to that point, I just can't eat. I need a break from the headache first.
So, I hope that by completing Step Two, that I will have most of my binges under control.
On a side note, I explained to my mom, what I was going through and she has been very supportive. She is about to stop smoking and I am her support person as I've recently quit smoking.
Quitting smoking wasn't really that hard for me. I just stopped by cigarettes. This part gets a little nasty. I started smoking the butts in my ashtray because I still needed the nicotine. Over time, the need to smoke faded and I stopped smoking the butts. I threw out all of my ashtrays. My only worry is being around others who smoke. I have to say that I don't feel a compulsion to smoke when I'm out and about. I just need to know how alcohol will affect me. I normally smoke when there's alcohol involved.
Step Two is all about eating on a regular schedule. I find that lately my binges are not emotional responses but are physiological responses to not eating in a timely manner. Four hours after breakfast, I binged on four pieces of buttered toast. I felt bad about that because if I was going to binge, I could have eaten something healthier like grapes or carrots. I did read that when people starve themselves they crave fatty foods.
It's not like I'm starving myself intentionally. I know that by not eating I'm only pushing my body into starvation mode, so it's slowing my metabolism and my body is hanging onto everything I eat and converting it to fat. I don't know. Lately, I don't feel like eating. I think my meds have something to do with that. Because I don't feel like eating. Then I get these headaches and I start to feel faint, so instead of eating, I lie down and sleep. When I get to that point, I just can't eat. I need a break from the headache first.
So, I hope that by completing Step Two, that I will have most of my binges under control.
On a side note, I explained to my mom, what I was going through and she has been very supportive. She is about to stop smoking and I am her support person as I've recently quit smoking.
Quitting smoking wasn't really that hard for me. I just stopped by cigarettes. This part gets a little nasty. I started smoking the butts in my ashtray because I still needed the nicotine. Over time, the need to smoke faded and I stopped smoking the butts. I threw out all of my ashtrays. My only worry is being around others who smoke. I have to say that I don't feel a compulsion to smoke when I'm out and about. I just need to know how alcohol will affect me. I normally smoke when there's alcohol involved.
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